Let me go

it's a great feeling to have someone to love you, to be there for you and to care for you. but what happen when all that are all gone just like that? she used to be one of the best thing for me, a best friend, for life. now, i guess she's too busy with her new found life. she has not reach yet to that stage of life of being someone she does not want to be at the first place, but look what's happen now. i am forgotten and left aside. while im sure it wasn't intentional but that was not an excuse. yes, i am a demanding, egoistic and misunderstood person, thus she cannot blame me for what every changes that will be made for this. every decision that will hurt someone, or maybe she didn't care anymore. fine by me then.

i am sure this would be the best for us, because i feel a piece of freedom after everything that happened. it's like i live again for a hundred times already, yeah, that's just me. i feel normal and i can do a lot of things that i have been holding back myself from doing it because of you. and i am pretty sure i have been holding your back too with all my tantrums and all. i don't want that for you and certainly not for me too. thank you for everything that you had shown me in this cold place i called life. all of the promises, all the words and all the dreams, i will keep that with me and always will be remembered. it's so sad to let go, but things need to be done before it hurts both of us deeper. so i'm saying goodbye to you and all your promises that i wish you tried harder to keep, not just by words without meaning. even if there are meanings and all behind it, you don't try hard enough and im done trying for you.